The Holy Agony episode guide

Episodes of Catholic sound experiment the Holy Agony.


(From the 2022.08.20 release of all episodes in one file.)

Episode notes

(“The Holy Agony was Jess and John.”)

① You’re Gonna Die (The Feast of St. Justin, Martyr)

John Dios and Jessica meditate on mortality and the First Sorrowful Mystery in the time of the extremely real pandemic.

Featuring Br. B, a friendly handyman, Gabriel, Eleanor, and music by John, Wafers 3D, and Bri of Many Rooms.

② Father, Worker, Terror of Demons (The Feast of St. Joseph the Worker)

John and Jess do the work of honoring their fathers.

Featuring @_artistsrifles, @plainte_calme, Br. B, @token_blue, music by Wafers 3D, with a guest appearance by the Dios kids.

③ If It’s a Symbol, to Hell With It! (The Feast of Corpus Christi)

Jessica and John experience miraculous visions while trying to understand the mystery of the Body and Blood of Christ. Featuring music by @plainte_calme, Carmelittles, and Wafers 3D.

④ The Woman Clothed with the Sun (The Feast of Our Lady’s Assumption)

“And a great sign appeared in heaven: A woman clothed with the sun, and the moon under her feet, and on her head a crown of twelve stars”
– The Apocalypse of St. John, Chapter 12

Featuring Br. B, @TaraAnnThieke, @plainte_calme, @briesslewis, @_selfoptimizer; music by Wafers 3D.

⑤ Defend Us in Battle (The Feast of St. Michael the Archangel)

Jessica and John turn the sword on themselves and declare war on that serpent of old, called the Devil and Satan, enlisting St. Michael and a heavenly host:

Original music:

⑥ Remember That You Are Dust (The Feast of All Souls)


Good Friday 2021: John Dios sequesters himself in a motel in Sandy Hook, Connecticut to begin working on what will become the Holy Agony. He finds a church there, contemplates the cross, and has a psychedelic vision of Our Lord’s Passion called Passiontide ’65.
Act One: Our Lord wanders in the desert for 40 days and is tempted by the Enemy (2022.03.04)
Act Two: Our Lord performs his final miracles, enters Jerusalem to great adoration, and is betrayed by the Apostle Judas following the Last Supper. (2022.03.11)
Act Three: He suffered under Pontius Pilate, was crucified, died and was buried. He descended into Hell and rose again on the third day. (2022.03.18)


De Falsis Deis (On False Gods): The John Dios Midsummer Holiday Special

Join John Dios and friends for the official Holy Agony Midsummer’s Eve party. Among the guests who stop by to throw false idols into the bonfire are Dan X. Thrall and Cult Wine Grinch. Featuring original music by Mike Griswold. (2021.06.23)

Mandatory Jolliness:
The John Dios Family Christmas Special [2021]

John Dios explains the meaning of the Christmas to his kids during a walk through the woods of Southern New England, then brings them to the mall where he slips into a hallucinatory reverie and is visited by the many ghosts of Christmas Twitter. After attaining MANDATORY JOLLINESS, the Dios Family returns home to a small-town Christmas-tree lighting and musical finale. (2021.12.18)

A Swamp Yankee Radio Christmas Special
(Mandatory Jolliness 2022)

Family & friends join me in the swamps of New England for song, cheer and DEEP DARK CRINGE. Warm up with us by the fire on the darkest day of the year. Featuring:

and MANY MORE. (2022.12.20–21)

Postmortem from John Dios

As told to the Tales from the Mall podcast:

Really the six proper episodes were all kind of like we had planned them all out. There was an arc that had started at the beginning talking about covid and people being afraid of death, and then we ended with an episode about death and people we knew who we were dead and people we knew on Twitter talked about family members who had died. So it was kind of a closed[‑loop] project....

We had a device with the Holy Agony where it corresponded with the Catholic liturgical calendar. The idea was it would keep us on target. We’d keep moving, because you have to meet a date. You’re gonna to do something like the Feast of St. Michael or whatever – you can’t release it two weeks after the Feast of St. Michael. You have to get your ass in gear and do it. So it worked.

And then we kind of... we didn’t really have, after we did the first six episodes, we didn’t have a battle plan that we agreed on. And so we both just – you know, I wanted to do smaller episodic stuff and I started doing it, just doing solo episodes a little bit here and there. And [she] had this big grand plan, which was probably more than she could manage with her schedule and all the stuff she had going on. So it turned into a situation where we didn’t have any coherent vision. I was just doing stuff on my own here and there and not promoting it much, and she was stuck on trying to make something and not getting anywhere....

Updated: 2022.12.24

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